Ever have those days (weeks) where you just can’t quite get your flow?
We. Are. There.
The seven year old told me this morning during a particularly rough patch of getting ready time that he wished he was being raised by wolves.
The PTSD has been more PTSDish this week, with fogginess and forgetfulness. The Mama has had much less patience with everything. And then I find something that sent me right over the edge:
I left a note that says “To whoever’s doing this, I will hunt you down!”
Unfortunately there are two potential culprits who can’t read so my threats may be lost on 33% of the household but whatever.
We’re transitioning our eating to organic, real food and gluten free(ish) so I made an attempt at gluten free cookies the other night that turned out like this:
The four year old got into the markers:
And at one point last night I lost the baby. THE BABY! Turns out he was outside while his big brother was practicing the trombone (your welcome Highland Farms addition!) but my heart was in my throat for a brief moment.
There have been too many doctor appointments, therapy appointments, treatments, homework, actual work, laundry, dirty dishes, dirty floors and just messiness. At this point it may be easier to burn the house down than to clean it, and of course we’re having family over this weekend for birthday celebrations.
Crap! I have to go buy presents.
Things are undone here at the Shafer Casa but we are still holding on. I’m in need of a perspective change, a paradigm shift, a better attitude.
The only way I know how to do that is to find things right now even in the middle of the mess to celebrate. To be grateful for. So here is my list for the moment:
-My sweet baby who still runs at me with open arms and slobbery kisses when he hasn’t seen me for awhile.
-My twelve (how is he twelve?!) year old who practices trombone outside and made first chair.
-My seven year old who tries so hard.
-The sweet girl who still just sometimes wants to snuggle with her Mama.
-The partner who hugs me when things get too hard and tells me we’re all gonna be ok.
Reading over that list shows me I have a lot of blessings in my life right now. I shouldn’t waste another minute on the stuff not going right, but breathe in the stuff that is.
Good talk, y’all. Thanks!
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