Becoming

It’s ok to be a work in progress.  (photo cred bravegirlsclub.com)
You don’t have to have it all together or know exactly what you’re supposed to do with each situation life presents you. If you can go about this life with a grateful heart, all the while allowing our good Father to do his work deep in your soul, you’re headed somewhere, friend.

Be still. And be still becoming who God made you to be– ©Copyright Meredith Shafer 2016
#becoming #cocooning #workinprogress #gratefulheart

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Monday Madness

By 8:03 a.m. today I lost my mind and frankly, my will to do anything. Everyone at my house was off their game. 

Everyone.

The twelve year old left everything everywhere as if the magic cleaning fairy would be arriving soon to clean up after him. 

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The eight year old woke up late, moved slow, worked my last nerve with talk back and outbursts. I also found out why I keep getting a bill from the school cafeteria: despite making and taking his lunch every day, he was getting a tray instead of eating his lunch. So I do indeed owe the school $16.47.

The Little Sister of the bunch spilled her milk, threw a fit, spilled more milk. I still hadn’t lost it yet though. I was still slogging through getting the oldest two out on the bus at two different times and then getting the two littles ready while the baby was spilling yet more milk and the dog was drinking out of the toilet and I had so much work to get done today and it was time to cautiously wake up Mr. Wonderful (cautiously because he has the PTSD, we have a process) when I realized: 

This is my life. For realsies. 

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Confession: I’ve been a fraud. Faking it with optimism and gratitude til I make it but never really making it up that hill. Working three jobs to make ends meet. Raising four kids, sometimes by myself. Caregiving for Mr. Wonderful. Waiting for someone else to come and claim the life they lost because this can’t be mine.

A few short years ago I had a working husband who was able to help a lot with our busy household. I only had three kids and two jobs. There was no VA battle, no PTSD, no ADHD, no running around constantly like a crazy woman. I only had to run around like a crazy woman sometimes back then.

I’m so tired of pushing and straining and striving to try to make changes and have nothing budge. I’m exhausted from not seeing more progress to spur me on. I’m tired of being tired and worried and unable to sleep or find time for working out or finding joy in time spent with my kids instead of hauling them from point A to point B just hoping I get them there on time.

I’m sick of fighting the VA to get my soldier the care and benefits he deserves. I’m afraid I don’t have any fight left and the battle’s not done yet. 

I’m weary today. And overwhelmed. And claustrophobic by the walls of responsibility closing in. I’m ready for the spring of my life and it feels like the winter winds have just begun.

The one thing I have going for me right now is that in my hardest moments of realness and raw honesty God meets me where I am. He comes to me with comfort, hope and peace, somehow knowing that this Monday, when I’m on the edge of losing my mind and my hope I need his steadying hand more than ever. He changes me from the inside out, even while He upholds me. 

I find great comfort in knowing that the orchestrator of the chaos of the universe cares about each hair on my head, on each worry and heartbreak and tear and breath of little ol’ me.

I remind myself that things can’t be too bad if I am loved, both by God and by my tribe. That I have a life that some others would trade me for in an instant. That as hard as things are today, today is only temporary. 

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And the God of my today is the God of my yesterday and tomorrow. He will see me through. He has gone before me, walks beside me and is behind me.

I just have to get out of the way of myself, surrender to his scandalous grace, and remember it’s not over yet.

He’s not finished with me. 

©Copyright Meredith Shafer 2016. Swing by Instagram and Twitter to say hi!

Monday Coffee Quote

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  (Photo cred sublimespeech.com) You’re welcome. Happy Monday y’all!

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Give Yourself a Break

I hate to say it, but we’re starting off this week a little rough. I don’t know if it’s the weather or the anticipated break but yesterday and this morning have wrung me out to the core. 

There’s no one thing; it’s just the pile of things that weighs me down. Anyone else? 

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Between the late night taking Charlie the Service Dog to the doggy ER (probable abscessed tooth, we’re following up with our regular vet today) and not hitting my caffeine limit yet today, I’m dragging booty. And of course I’m not super happy about spending money on doggy dental right before Christmas.

Sigh.

No longer can I party at the doggy ER all night then wake up super early to get four kids out the door. Remember those days? Some of you are still living them but I’m older now and I can’t do it. Back in the day I could stay up all night, grab breakfast with no sleep and head to class where my brain would still function pretty well.

Even a few years (and a few kids) ago, I could be up with a baby most of the night, hit the coffee hard and still make sound decisions at work.

Now–not so much.

Let’s just say there’s not enough coffee in the world today to make me feel comfortable doing much with the money/number side of my job. I’ll be doing things like checking the mail and returning phone calls and scheduling site visits. And I’ll take it easy on myself and continue to caffeinate.

And remind myself that I’m doing the best I can. 

Sometimes that’s the most kind thing we can do for ourselves. Keeping things in perspective, not talking bad to or about ourselves just because it’s a rocky start or a hard day. We can turn our own days around just by giving ourselves a break. 

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Don’t wait for anyone else to do it for you. No matter what you’re walking through or towards today, do your best and forget the rest. And then give yourself a break, remind yourself there are new mercies for all of us everyday, and live in peace despite your circumstances.

Take a minute. Breathe. Drink coffee. 

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This is my plan before I tackle the rest of my day. And no matter the outcomes of all the crazy I have going on, it will still be a blessed day.  

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I hope yours is too, friends.

©Copyright Meredith Shafer 2015

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Monday Coffee Quote

  
Oh ho ho, it’s Monday again! Whether or not you’re ready for it, it’s here. But it is a chance to do things right this week, a fresh start, a new way forward. So grab your venti triple extra large cuppa joe and hit the ground running! Today is a blessing, treat it as the gift it truly is and see what happens to your Monday❤️

☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️

#coffee #coffeeisforclosers #Monday #letsdothis

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Hallelujah!

I’m back baby! I’m unstoppable now that I got my WordPress app up and running!! Since I do everything–including blogging, managing my four kids’ schedules, getting Mr. Wonderful to doctor’s appointments, doing work stuff and writing my next book all in my phone–without my blog app working properly I’ve been MIA.

But not anymore!

So here’s what’s going on in my world right now:  

These photos were taken within one minute:

The Rockstar and Ballerina graciously stopped their “show” for a photo op, Baby Houdini was wearing his sister’s high heels while playing with trucks, and Big Brother told me he was wearing this China shirt “ironically” (he knows this?) because he was born in South Korea.

I am trying to work in the midst of this Traveling Circus and its glorious! Don’t you wish your office had this kind of entertainment?! You may not get much done but you’ll be entertained for sure.

So happy to be baaaaaaacckkkk!

(Photo credit Meredith Shafer) ©Copyright Meredith Shafer 2015 

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Monday Coffee Quote

It’s here again friends! Monday: a chance to start your week right, do things better than last week, be awesome.

Let’s get ‘er done!
#Monday #coffeeisforclosers
#MotivationMonday

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Let’s Do This!

Hello Monday!

Time for fresh starts, new mercies, needed beginnings. Time to move forward–slow or fast, by inches or miles.

It’s time to stretch your arms to the heavens, take in the beauty around you, and say thanks. Thanks for all that has been, all that is and all that will come.

Leap out of bed, let your feet hit the floor already moving, grab your cuppa Joe and then grab this day and don’t let go until you’ve accomplished what you’ve set out to do! #Monday #coffeeisforclosers #hitthegroundrunning #gratitude

(Photo credit thesweetescape.ca) ©Copyright Meredith Shafer 2015

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